Does it hurt more when it’s your own fault? I still feel the pain of every person I’ve let down. I can’t even voice my mistakes to another person, I’m so afraid of just how much more alone I could be. Everything really came down on my head all at once this time. I don’t know if I’ll survive it. I miss all of those I’ve ever loved. I was so afraid of being alone, that I got myself exactly there. I get in my own way all the time. How do I shake myself. How do I rid myself of me.
I been having vivid dreams, them shits is more than scary
Graveyards or mortuaries
Haunted by these goals that I’m tryna accomplish
Underrated, over-hated, I’m tired of the nonsense
Things I’ve could’ve done better, it lies in my conscience
And I’ll never forget it, I’m my worst critic
Such a overthinker, I’m so self-reflective
